Sweet Rassy Molassy

this as in THIS old name.

it needs to go.

personally i'm just sick of looking at these ugly fonts....

...so i'm starting fresh!


the new name is .....................

unexplainabull

I wanted to go back to a regular style of writing el.jay....

and I want a new name.

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I really should get to bed early...

...but it's already midnight, so fuck it.

I've been home for one week. It's weird. It's really weird. Especially since I hung out with Meg like nothing changed.

But we have. Which is good. I told her today that I said she was different, but not in this stigmatized "change = BAD" bullshit someone threw at me during Spring Break. And for all this time, I didn't want to come home to a whole bunch of people just WAITING to see how different everyone's become. Because we're joking ourselves if we're not different after a year of college.

There's definately those people you fit with though, no matter what you go through. I see it totally with Meg and Sabrina. Paterni too, but that bitch aint home yet.

And Sarah <3. Weird that it's been a week isn't it you crazy girl?

Whatever. this post sucks.

- - - this was the first oc. of my life that i did not watch with sarah bowers - - -

and. holy. shit.

can next season come now? PLEASE? Speaking of, can summer end? It's gross that I say that, but seriously. I want to go back. Maybe not to finals. but just everything. so instead of facing my first night out in the LBV, I'm going to write down all the things I miss about DePauw and it's certain special people.

.-.-.-.Things I'll Miss about Sarah and Us.-.-.-.


I'll miss.....
+ 8-Twelve HOLLA!
+ Wednesdays, Thursdays, Fridays, and Saturdays
+ Hick accents
+ Beaded beards
+ Teenage pregnancies (not us, on them. the townies)
+ Townies
+ Having townies not be able to distinguish us from them when we're gross
+ Being asked, "hey..did you try and look that gross?"
+ Mad Dog
+ Longden Bathrooms
+ Porschia
+ BABY'S DADDY
+ Eating. all. the. time.
+ Her gothic wardrobe
+ Her cute hair
+ Our plans to become lesbians
+ Our plans to become lesbians when we're old and single
+ Our plans to become lesbians with boyfriends
+ Nights (((NOT))) studying at Julian, but IMing across the table instead
+ N.u.m.a.n.u.m.a
+ Excessive Drinking
+ Eating away our hangover, reading pamphlets about drinking problems
+ Little Five
+ Delt's HUGE PENIS
+ Karate Chopping Delt Coolers
+ Hiding in bathrooms
+ Discussing Constitutional rights in bathrooms
+ Pictures. Pictures Pictures
+ Smoking when drinking
+ Snorting
+ Marv's 24/7...only to realize it sounds a lot better than it is
+ Taking the "S" out of KSS and just being KS.
+ Slamming doors and screaming "Beeches"...oh wait, see above.
+ Flashing each other
+ Paddy Murphy
+ That bitch Humbert RA / parole officer
+ CODE NAMES
+ The Jewelry and Sunglasses Section at Walmart
+ Tri-weekly trips to WalMart
+ Binge Eating
+ Binge Drinking
+ Talking in third person calling ourselves "Baby" ((i.e. "Baby's hungry" or "Baby's gross")
+ Drunk voice. I'll miss that
+ Grease
+ Sharing a bag of baked doritos
+ eating everything in her drawer of food
+ wait, sarah, this all has to do with eating,
+ Her undeniable beauty, when we put the effort into it
+ Star of David songs
+ Groping while sleeping in the middle of the night
+ CODE NAMES. did i say that? Yes. I did.
+ ........oh kim, jarge, britney, and michael........
+ bitchy mc.bitch
+ passing out on that nasty ass couch
+ laughing til we cry about hicks, townies, and fatties
+ generally just making fun of other people and ourselves
+ ditching homework and the motivation to do it at the door of sae.
+ her smile
+ tears.
+ hugs
+ spooning
+ her family
+ my/her mom
+ going out looking like retards
+ passing out
+ passing out
+ barfing mad dog
+ watching you barf mad dog
+ UNCONDITIONAL LOVE SAR
+ laying out in the sun
+ microwaving
+ frivolous spending
+ being broke
+ paying for the Hub with Ca$$$H
+ Funds denied.
+ You made me shoot Diet Coke all over my computer. AGAIN.
+ Falling down stairs
+ Hiding from crazy drunks
+ Hiding cuz we're crazy drunks
+ Winter Term. where it all started
+ . . . . . being there for me when i need her . . . . .
+ never saying, "gross. i don't want to hear about that."
+ never calling me a hypocrite
+ maybe just a hippo
+ all the memories, smiles, tears.....
+ ALL THE NATTY LIGHT, MAD DOG AND FOOOOOOOOOD
+ I love you kiddo
+ her. more than life...

.-.-.-.Things I'll miss about Him.-.-.-.


i'll miss.....
+ His smile
+ The scar stories
+ Our constantly ending friendship
+ The Kappa handshake he does to me.....damn you phi alpha and your MYSTERIOUSNESS
+ His intellect
+ Words such as "antecedent" and "proper pronoun" when we have sleepovers
+ Pink Lemonade...that whole day in general actually
+ his constant apologies for that day
+ Garden State quotes
+ His incredulous music
+ How he says I should accept life, wear all black and listen to songs about high school sucking
+ His Crocs...I love them....not
+ our skin
+ His freckles
+ His nickname Michael. Ha.
+ how he called Sarah kiddo last night
+ The way he shakes my hand and calls me dude and plays 'us' platonically
+ the way he faces his back towards me if i make him mad at our sleepovers
+ my hickies
+ his little sayings
+ the way he calls his house...not sae, but sigma alpha epsilon fraternity....like the way he said it when he asked me to paddy murphy
+ his light weight drinking habits
+ he winks at me
+ he said he'd miss me
+ The way he got all philosophical about my eyes and said something about our society being so dependent on words that we expect to explain the unexplainable.
+ his intellect. AGAIN.
+ the way we fight online at julian
+ the way we make up
+ the way we keep it innocent
+ the way we kiss as we smile without kissing teeth...TRY it!! it's HARD!!!!!
+ walking across the dells to go see him
+ our top secret trips to hogate
+ him. i'll miss him.

.-.-.-.THINGS I'LL MISS ABOUT DEPAUW.-.-.-.

I'll miss.......
+ Drinking
+ Drinking
+ Frats
+ Drinking
+ Kappa
+ Kappa fro-yo
+ Hogate
+ Longden
+ Mason, third floor second window.. my mom's room
+ my GIRLS
+ going out any mother fuckin' day of the week
+ Informals and theme parties
+ Returning theme party life jackets and scuba wear from PhiPsi's beach party
+ Wal.Mart
+ Townies
+ the G-spot-CASTLE
+ sleeping through classes
+ Winter Term
+ Drinking
+ Outdoor concerts
+ Everything and everyone





i LOVE you depauw.

That's right bitches.

Be sad.

On Thursday night, I'll be home. Isn't that weird that in just four days I'll be back in lame ass Libertyville? I might go fucking crazy. Honestly, I just might.

I could list all the reasons WHY DePauw is better than you, but I won't. Because if you don't go here, you just don't know.

One of the reasons I'm nervous to go back is how much I have to work. I got accepted to Rome and Paris for Winter Term 2006, but it's really expensive. It's at least thirty-three hundred ($3300) dollars. Yikes. I might have to look into stripping or whoring myself out for a couple nights a week.

My mom's probably going to let me go..but she's gunna be a bitch about going out and spending money for concerts and stuff this summer. Honestly, I can't even see myself going out at night because I'm going to be so busy. I don't even have a car this summer either. I don't mind biking in the morning, but still. It's going to be such a bitch.

Hopefully I'll get the Adler Day Camp job --- I might do the 8-3:30 gig instead of the 11-5:30, so I could get to my second job earlier. I haven't talked to Jungleland or Nektar yet...maybe because Jungleland might not be so flexible with my time constraints or time off or Adler, and Nektar completely FUCKED me with taxes. Cheap bastards. Oh well,I made good tip money before I spent it on cigarettes and gas.

I'm also scared to go home because I kinda had some shit during spring break regarding me "changing." And I'm not saying that's a bad thing because for the most part I like who I am ((shut up we've all made mistakes)), but going back to people that you surrounded yourself with an entire year ago is just asking for things to go back to the way they were. Which is also asking for things to be awkward as shit...I mean, I love you guys and I'll love love LOVE hanging out with you...but don't pretend that we're not all the same anymore. And don't ONLY talk about college. Because everyone's experience is different and it sucks if I have no idea who you're talking about....................also, and this is pulled from SB context....please don't think you're the only one who goes to a college that (((((gasp))))) drinks. I drink fucking four nights a week, so for you to say you had a crazy weekend is saying I had a crazy Wasted Wednesday.

I'm also ALSO scared becase I'm not really sure what I'm going to do without Sar. It's soooo weird to think that we've only been friends since Winter Term this year, but it seems like years and years and years. She's just hilarious, my everything really. She's the kinda girl that is the most mature and collected person you'll ever meet, followed by the most immature, disgusting person you'll ever meet. She drinks a lot of water and makes a chipmunk face when she drinks too much of it. I'm looking at her do it. HAHA



she knows i'm writing about her.

She smells like shit too.

I know she'll read this HAHAHAHHAHAHA Sar.

I just have to remember that Terre Haute could be a lot further away....


.....intermission.....

Honestly, I just don't want to go home. I don't care about anyone else's college experience but my own. No offense.

.....end of intermission, part two.....


Finals suck. So does the school year ending. I'm going to miss everyone so much. One in particular. One who has been around for a month now.

wow. one month.

sar and I just went through our calendar to make sure.
Yep. ONE MONTH.

that's amazing....and i'm really happy.



and now i have to do the most miserable thing EVER and go home. and leave this. why why why why why

why why why why why


why why why why why





please please don't get me wrong because I loved my hometown. I'm just not sure I want to deal with all that bullshit that comes with it.

Lucky me that I have lauren jagiel who has grown with me through this G-castle experience. And Sar.


and him.......


GOD I'LL MISS THIS.




. . . to be continued i guess . . .


PS. my Roommate left yesterday. My room is my own for the next three days. HOLLA

...and the collision of your kiss that makes it hurt."

I'm listening to this song right now -- it's really good; My Chemical Romance is going to be at Warped Tour.

Apparently, if you go to Dave instead of Warped Tour...you're a loser.

It's true.

I decided that this would be the perfect opportunity to write Lauren Jagiel a little diddy about how much I love her.

Dear Lauren,
I love you. I want to express the joy you have undoubtedly filled me with since the end of senior year when we both found out we would be attending DePauw University. How excited we were to travel to the depths of the MIDDLE OF NOWHERE...TOGETHER. And now is the time to express how, out of 467 people we graduated with, happy I am that it is down to 2 L'Villians...you and me.
This has probably been the biggest change I've ever experienced, and you have helped me adapt so much I can't even put it into words. I felt like we took this campus by storm, and NO DOUBT are we going to do it even more so next year. Now that I know what i'm doing when it comes to holding my own drinking with you and hanging out without scaring away ((toooo)) many people...it also helps knowing i'm going to hell already, so anything I do now is just icing on the hell cake.
This summer will be a great one. Hopefully we can squeeze in a couple trips out to visit people together while you're at home from camp and I'm not buried under word to save up for my new computer/Winter Term 'o6. Thank you for understanding everything random and weird about me, for DRIVE BYS on our BIRTHdAYS!!, for laughing in God's face during the peace offertory at church (Just kidding God, don't kill me!!!!) for laughing/making up our mean jokes towards people fatter and 203948023984 times uglier than us, for loving every mistake and dumb hookup i've made that you may or may not know about, for not judging me, for getting pissed when i don't go out when you do, for being just goddamn hilarious, for being there when i made up the star of david song, for being independent and not bitter about it, for this year, this summer, and this fall. Get ready DePauw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're only on a three month break from us bitches!!

Love,
Katie

A Diet Coke cost me a thousand dollars.
No joke; I spilled one on mycomputer last week, and my motherboard sizzled, fried, and died.

Speaking of mothers..good transition, i know..mine's coming tomorrow.

and there's a lot to hide from her. and I don't like doing that. i feel bad because there's a lot she doesn't know, things i don't ever want her to know..and things she probably does know about, but I'll never admit them.


I'm bored, tired.

i'm going to miss the shit out of sarah.

- - - - - - - - post from march 1st - - - - - - - -
Dear ________,

I just want to let you know that you're not a nice person anymore. And just because I can keep a secret doesn't mean I'm doing YOU any favors; I liked you (as in the PAST!!!) but I still love me a whole hell of a lot more. I also want to stress that NOBODY has me around their finger...and that I'm no longer wasting my time by thinking about this after this entry is completed. I will never be the person to miss out, I don't care about you, and I've always thought you were a dick. so asking me not to is just stupid.

Sincerely, Kryptonite
**apparantly, Superman's only weakness**

P.S. You're not Superman




- - - - - - - - post for now - - - - - - - -


Dear _____,

I'm really sorry that I wrote that really mean letter to you. I realize now that it was inappropriate and childish because you were only trying to protect your own ass, as well as mine. Though we've made some interesting decisions together this year, we're still pretty cool with each other. I find that to be the best thing about our friendship because we finally have reached the friendship status. Sure you make fun of me, my plans to delay Warped Tour for Dave, and my life in general....but you're funny, have the best taste in music, and talk to me online a lot. BONUS POINTS! It's weird, almost creepy, how similar we are. I hope you have a great summer; I'm really sorry, and I'm lucky to have you as a friend. I should have never said what I did. And I'm glad we can move on from this and each other and still be friends.

....and summer....




I'm really going to miss DePauw.

A place I spent my entire senior year protesting is now the only place I want to be.

I don't want to leave the people I'm leaving. I love you all way too much.
SarSar, Lauren, Anne, my roomie even, Sarah, all the Kappas, the BOYS!!!, my boy, the houses, Sae, the beer, the parties, the laughs, the tears, the 'i can do whatever the fuck i want to' attitude.....


I'm going to miss the hell of you, my darlings.


It's really winding down; take advantage